getting started

As life progresses and I walk into a new chapter in my life. Realizing that you are no longer a college student, you are no longer a student in general is a huge deal. I am somewhat lost in who or what I will become. College doesn’t exactly prepare you for after college. I am however truly blessed to have a calling on my life to serve the Lord, but that doesn’t mean that everything is perfect.

Me and my mom are a lot alike I love her to death and really truly appreciate the way she speaks into my life. It is hard to be gracious sometimes when you are at such a loss of what to do. I am at one of those points where I need my mother desperately, but I consequently want to do everything on my own so I can know I did it! I am not sure how to approach the issue, we have been disagreeing about almost everything. To me it seems as though no matter how many times I try to help out around the house, I always have forgot the one thing that mattered more. It is however comforting that I know she wants me to succeed and do the best I can. Her intentions are admirable, I as her daughter just can’t seem to get over myself.

I know that I have lost the right to defend myself, it is just really hard to execute when you are really unsure of what is happening yourself that you just need WANT to defend the little portion you have under control. Now I realize God has everything in his hands, “cast your anxiety on him for he cares for you” – 1 peter…

It just seems to be harder and harder the more committed you become to the process. How do you break free from the pressures of not knowing where you are.

Support raising is not for the faint of heart, I feel as though I have been doing absolutely everything I could to get ahold of these people, and absolutely NOTHING all at the exact time.

I need to spend some time and refocus my life on Jesus, I need to stop drowning and lock my eyes on him. For I know he has everything worked out! :]

Cross before me, world behind me… It is not for me it is all for you.

 Sally