grief

how can i explain, the physical grief that i hold.
what explanation do i have.
i wish i could hold you in my arms like i did when we were little and you were scared. I wish i could be there i tell you its gonna be fine.I wish it was not my fault that you are where you are.
Im sorry for making it all right.
Im sorry for making things the way i did.
I should have known better. I should have cared to think of what it would do to you.

Now all i do is feel this regret.
I pray and cry for you everyday
I pray that the lord will wrap you in his love
that he will lead you back to what you know is truth.
I pray that you will stop being angry with him
I want you to feel this Joy
This amazing Joy that he has given us.

Please.. Please
be better.
feel better

stop rejecting him
stop rejecting me.

I only and always want the best for you, i know you can be happy, just let Jesus back into your life. The sunshine will shine, it will come out. and everything will be swept away.


sally