getting started

As life progresses and I walk into a new chapter in my life. Realizing that you are no longer a college student, you are no longer a student in general is a huge deal. I am somewhat lost in who or what I will become. College doesn’t exactly prepare you for after college. I am however truly blessed to have a calling on my life to serve the Lord, but that doesn’t mean that everything is perfect.

Me and my mom are a lot alike I love her to death and really truly appreciate the way she speaks into my life. It is hard to be gracious sometimes when you are at such a loss of what to do. I am at one of those points where I need my mother desperately, but I consequently want to do everything on my own so I can know I did it! I am not sure how to approach the issue, we have been disagreeing about almost everything. To me it seems as though no matter how many times I try to help out around the house, I always have forgot the one thing that mattered more. It is however comforting that I know she wants me to succeed and do the best I can. Her intentions are admirable, I as her daughter just can’t seem to get over myself.

I know that I have lost the right to defend myself, it is just really hard to execute when you are really unsure of what is happening yourself that you just need WANT to defend the little portion you have under control. Now I realize God has everything in his hands, “cast your anxiety on him for he cares for you” – 1 peter…

It just seems to be harder and harder the more committed you become to the process. How do you break free from the pressures of not knowing where you are.

Support raising is not for the faint of heart, I feel as though I have been doing absolutely everything I could to get ahold of these people, and absolutely NOTHING all at the exact time.

I need to spend some time and refocus my life on Jesus, I need to stop drowning and lock my eyes on him. For I know he has everything worked out! :]

Cross before me, world behind me… It is not for me it is all for you.

 Sally

secure.

My friend Joesph posted this today and it really hit me.

 "Have I put myself into your hands, or have I always been there? Sometimes you get so used to your surroundings you forget where you are, but when you remember it's the most secure place you've ever known."

I am thankful that no matter how many times I forget where I am, that when Jesus finally is like "umm hello" I am still here and you realize that is where you have been.. the whole time.. safe and secure..in his arms.

love it!

 Sally

funnel!

Wow WOW WOW,
 What whirlwind! In the past two weeks  I have, Graduated, Moved out, and turned 23! SHEESH
I have been support raising for the past 2 week full time, It has definatly been harder then i expected but totally humbling and amazing at the same time. God has really been working in my heart and preparing me for what is gonna be happening this fall! :]

All in all, I have a little desk set up at my parents place and I work on things there, it is so nice to be able to have paresnts that let me come stay with them for the next 2 1/2 weeks.

DONE and DONE

Well well well, I have officially graduated from college at UTSA! Needless to say it feels a bit like nothing, very surreal. More on the side of, oh my i don't really know how i feel about this.
 HOWEVER it is awesome and I am soooo excited and its like mind blowing to me that i will no longer be on the UTSA campus to go to school!

I am so thankful for my parents and how much they have invested and sacrificed for me over the years.  They mean so much to me, and i can't even really express how I really feel. My brother for always being there to give me comfort when I need it or laugh at me and tell me I am being stupid. :p
I am thankful for my grandparents who invested some of their money into my education! and for their loving support and guidance over the years.
AND of course my friends!

Erika - for always understanding me, and being there for me when I need her most! She has been a huge influence in my life, and helped me fall in love with the Lord all over again.

Alyssa (BIRD_) - For being a wonderful listener and all around great friend!, I think that she is the one I always end up jumping on and getting crazy around

Jessi! - The one and only! This girl has watched me and guided me through some tuff points in my life and NEVER GAVE UP on me. and for that I am eternally thankful

and of course everyone else! You all have impacted my life in profound ways.

 I only hope that I continually provided an example of the Lords Love through my actions!

SO excited for the summer!

Tomorrow I will be going home and support raising in the valley! hurrrah


THE LORD IS SOOOOO GOOOD!!! ahhh
AMEN.

Here are some pictures!!

ON THE WAY TO GRADUATION WITH MY MOM, ALYSSA, AND ERIKA

MA BFF'S THESE GIRLS ARE AMAZING

WALKING IN! AHHHHH

ME AND MY PARENTS AFTERWARD!! HURRRAYY 

ALL READY!

MY GRADUATION PRESENT! A BEAUTIFUL NEW CROSS NECKLACE! 

Graduation

AHHHH, one more day and 2 more finals! and I am done!!

I am so excited and feeling a little bit blessed that I am finally finishing school FOREVER!
(not that I will stop learning..ever! but school is jsut such a different mindset!)

I am excited. thats it.. I should be studying.

The Commission

We are brought in and invited near, to share his HEART. I am totally broken by the reality of what he has done for me. I didn't deserve this why has he done this for me? He loves me.

Take me.
Send me.

I am commissioned to represent him. I bear the very name, image and reputation of God almighty.

Go. for the lamb that was slain deserves the reward for his suffering.

He is capstone, it all falls short without the capstone.

I ask for your strength. because with out you I will fail.

I give you my body, and my life.

I will care for all that you care for. Overtake my life.

I will go into this world as little lambs with the Faces of lions.

I will stand in the authority of the name of Jesus, and will not back down.

His lambs. BEAT the wolf packs.

he is in control.

Jesus, Take what is rightfully yours.